Epic Fail

Today was an epic fail as a mother...lost my temper more times than I can remember, check.  Kids went to bed crying, check.  Desi asked me why I get so mad all the time, check.  Lindsey stayed downstairs all night because of the crying, check.  Wyatt fell over several times while trying to stand on his own, check.  I stayed in my pajamas all day, check.  Charly screamed and cried more times than I can remember, check.  I told Charly to go away while I was on the phone because she was throwing a temper tantrum, check.  I feel like going to bed crying, check.  I feel like a mad woman who's losing her mind, check!  Why is it when I feel like I'm starting to do better, I realize how many things I need to do and all the things I need to work on?  The funny thing is when I think about how there are so many better moms out there, I realize I don't want a different mom for my kids because they wouldn't know all their likes, dislikes and quirks like I do and at the end of the day, my kids still want ME.